We learned we were expecting our rainbow baby on August 8, 2020. As bad as we wanted a child, we couldn’t get excited. We were so scared God would take her and didn’t want to get our hopes high just to be hurt again. The instant connection I felt with my first pregnancy, couldn’t be felt this time. I kept telling my sister I couldn’t connect with Nugget, and I was afraid I wouldn’t love her. I cried so much because of the fear of losing her, but I still couldn’t understand why I wasn’t connected to her.

I went to the doctor three times for bleeding-September 14, 2020, was the worst. I had everyone at Woman’s Hospital, including the ultrasound tech, on edge. They all prayed for Nugget and me. It was even worse because I had to go alone due to COVID. It took me at least three months to feel a real connection with her.

The devil really tried to interfere with my blessing, and I almost allowed him, but he is a liar. The love I have for my Nugget is unbelievable, even though I haven’t held her in my arms yet. Those moment of thinking I was going to lose her was a test of my faith. I prayed so hard that God wouldn’t take her from us, but I also had to believe. Nugget is definitely heaven-sent, and I can’t wait to give her all of my love!

What are you needing to believe God for?