This past week or so has been a roller coaster of emotions and thoughts. God has blessed me with so many opportunities and challenges that I started to doubt if it was God or if it was just my ambitious nature, driving me to do certain things. The moment I began to feel as if I had a grip on something new, something else occurred. I find myself doing multiple things at one time. The moment I failed to meet a standard I created for myself, I felt this burden of obligation or failure. For example, not releasing a podcast every Monday, not doing a Daily Devotional every day, grading test papers by the date I set or reading a certain number of school pages. At each of those moments, God would send me a word or a person to encourage me, constant reminders that I was doing exactly what I should be doing. Words to keep me focused on Him and His abilities and not my own. When I was met with a crossroads between studying and preparing for a test or organizing the store and doing a podcast or preparing for my classes and spending time with my children, God would clear the way. He would extend a test deadline, create spaces of time, or shut me down for rest.

What I have come to realize is that I don’t have to have all things figured out. I don’t have to control time. I don’t have to do it all. I need to be. I need to be obedient. I need to be humble. I need to be willing. I need to be, and God will be.

Today, ask yourself, what is God calling you to be? Then be.